Turning Around

Ok so in the course of about a week... everything changed. For the better.

I decided to head to Williams-Sonoma for about the fifth time and ask about my application. And thank God I did, because through doing that I got an interview! So the next day I head into my interview and just killed it. I have very good intuition (I get these "feelings" like a gut feeling, and I'm almost always right) so I sort of knew that I had it. The interview was a Monday, and I was told I would know on Friday. However, I got a call on Wednesday offering me the job! I was so thrilled, I think I called or texted just about everyone that I know. I really needed this money, I can't even explain. Plus, it's doing something that I really enjoy doing... getting to go to work and being surrounded by things that I love and aspire to owning someday, admittedly (copper cookware and KitchenAide stand mixers? Yes PLEASE). It's also really nice knowing that you were highly desired for the job, as opposed to the other jobs I applied to, where I felt that I had to prove myself and I was just grasping at straws.

I really do not want to be a cynical person. I went to church at HBIC and the sermon was about how love always hopes. I want to be a person who hopes always. I do not want to live believing that I cannot hope for things to be better. Right now I have a great deal of hope in a situation. My prayers seem to be fervent and passionate because I am not used to feeling so out of control. Maybe this is God's way of reminding me that I am human and vulnerable. Oh, how I hate to feel vulnerable. It is funny though, that it reminds me that I am under the protection of a loving God... regardless of how it all turns out. I will always be loved and protected under His wings. No one elses love could ever compare. And somehow that makes everything seem a little less scary.

But only a little.