Turning Around

Ok so in the course of about a week... everything changed. For the better.

I decided to head to Williams-Sonoma for about the fifth time and ask about my application. And thank God I did, because through doing that I got an interview! So the next day I head into my interview and just killed it. I have very good intuition (I get these "feelings" like a gut feeling, and I'm almost always right) so I sort of knew that I had it. The interview was a Monday, and I was told I would know on Friday. However, I got a call on Wednesday offering me the job! I was so thrilled, I think I called or texted just about everyone that I know. I really needed this money, I can't even explain. Plus, it's doing something that I really enjoy doing... getting to go to work and being surrounded by things that I love and aspire to owning someday, admittedly (copper cookware and KitchenAide stand mixers? Yes PLEASE). It's also really nice knowing that you were highly desired for the job, as opposed to the other jobs I applied to, where I felt that I had to prove myself and I was just grasping at straws.

I really do not want to be a cynical person. I went to church at HBIC and the sermon was about how love always hopes. I want to be a person who hopes always. I do not want to live believing that I cannot hope for things to be better. Right now I have a great deal of hope in a situation. My prayers seem to be fervent and passionate because I am not used to feeling so out of control. Maybe this is God's way of reminding me that I am human and vulnerable. Oh, how I hate to feel vulnerable. It is funny though, that it reminds me that I am under the protection of a loving God... regardless of how it all turns out. I will always be loved and protected under His wings. No one elses love could ever compare. And somehow that makes everything seem a little less scary.

But only a little.

It's Been Raining A Lot

You know, sometimes it is really easy to get upset about the way things in life aren't working out the way I planned. But in the midst of that, what I find myself most thankful for, other than my amazing family, are my friendships. I have been blessed beyond measure with friends who love me, support me, and accept me.

I talked to Hannah for 2 hours on the phone on Sunday. I can't believe we've been best friends for FOUR years already, and I still never run out of things to talk about with her. She has been my rock throughout college and I really believe that our friendship will last for our entire lives. I wish I could fly to Seattle tomorrow and just be there with her. I want to keep up with the things that are going on in her life and sometimes I'm a little jealous that other friends will have a better insight into the situation because they are present with her. I don't really worry about it though, because we have been through harder times apart, like when we lived on different continents for a year!

Caitlin came to visit this weekend and we had so much fun. Besides seeing a movie that was a litttttttttle too violent for my taste (which is basically any violence at all). It is so great to be able to pick back up and continue our friendship right where we left off a couple of months ago.

I have really been missing Tamarind lately. I miss her craziness and how she always appreciated my sarcasm more than anybody else. She always brings a light to my life that I really miss when she isn't around. I also miss being able to joke about white people with her, she always loved a good white person joke.

I'm so thankful that I have girlfriends around here like Sarah, Kori, and DJ. It's awesome to hang out with them and have fun girl nights like we had last night. And I absolutely love living with Erin. I really believe that God orchestrated everything to work out for the best for us. We have been able to be there for each other and support one another and I'm really thankful. It's funny that I wouldn't have met any of these girls if I hadn't become friends with Chad. I guess he's the lonely only boy that made it to this list. I miss making fun of each other and cooking for someone who always appreciated it. I am always thinking he's in China already, not a couple of miles away. I hope he's having an amazing time!

Well. I'm not sure what else to say. I'm now applying for retail jobs. I applied at Williams-Sonoma, which, come on -- I would be so perfect for! How dangerous would I be working at a cooking store... I'd probably spend my whole paycheck on expensive gadgets and a KitchenAid mixer and silicon baking sheets.
PRAY THAT I GET A JOB SOOOOOOOON!!!!