Nah, April Fools. I actually kinda hate April Fools cuz well, I feel like a fool. I remember the gym teacher in first grade told me my shoelaces were untied and then when I looked down he said "April fools" and all the kids laughed at me. I cried and my mom told me to toughen up. Good advice, yet also a good example of why I hide my sensitivities haha.
I had been talking with a good friend about maternal instinct, which is a very strange, mystical concept. While marriage and motherhood is not on my horizon right now, I still have this desire to care for and cuddle and hold and well... mother. My friend seemed to think it was unfair to have that instinct but then have to wait to use it. And that struck a chord with me because I was like, why shouldn't I be using it? I don't have to be a wife and mother to learn how to comfort and care for and love unselfishly. I think it is a mistake to believe that what God has placed within me must be stifled until if/when I get married... Because what if I don't? I think I have already stifled it enough as it is. As I ponder these things and read books that challenge my thinking and my situation right now, I can see my thoughts and prayers changing. Things I thought I wanted... no, needed (I still want them) don't seem as important as finding out how God wants to use me on this earth... Ok, I'll get off the soapbox.
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hey carly, i'm glad our friend chad mentioned my blog... and i'm glad that you blog! i've found that it can be a good way for me to think through some things. and for some reason, share it with the world (aka. the 3 people who read it).
you will be added to my google reader right now. :)
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