Spring has Sprung

Hmm... so I guess it's been awhile. I have become not so good at updating this things. I will try to organize the past 30+ days into one cohesive post... we'll see how that goes.
First of all, I have absolutely fallen in love with my kids from Montgomery. They are so precious, such beautiful gifts from God. I don't want to leave them for the summer. I find myself not even wanting Friday to come cuz I know that means I can't see them for a few days. There is something about living in this city that has captured my attention. It's dirty, it's loud, it's crowded... and yet it's beautiful. These past few gorgeous spring days... walking around the city, sitting in our beautiful gazebo/picnic tables/blanket in the grass in the backyard, just enjoying friendship and God's eye for beauty. It is truly breathtaking.
I am still amazed to think of the person I was when I was graduating high school, and how different I am just two years later (and yet, I keep thinking, has it been two years already?!?). Some things I wanted then have changed drastically, some are painfully the same. Sometimes when I remember the person I was in high school, I just remember being so sad... a painful rejection always pushed in my face, never ever feeling good/pretty/thin/cool/popular/(could the list really ever end?) enough to get through. I will not say that I am super happy, or that I have everything that I have ever wanted, but I feel so fulfilled. I guess it's joy, and not happiness, that I find so abundantly in my heart... and it is a great feeling. God is so great, isn't He?
I've decided to stay in Philly next semester. I am not sure why. Part of me misses the quiet of Grantham, but I really feel like I haven't completed my purpose here. I am hoping to get an RA position, but I'm like, the youngest person applying, so who knows about how that will turn out. I won't find out for almost another month, but if the CRAZYFAST month of March is anything like April, it'll feel like tomorrow.
I need patience... Being faithful is never easy, especially when you have to let go of your grasp on something and admit that you don't know what the future holds. Sometimes I feel crazy for putting so much faith into something I heard so many years ago. Then other times, I remember that He who has promised us is faithful. I am so thankful that I serve a God of mercy, I am so touched that He cares for my heart and my wishes, and even when I screw it up again and again, I praise God because He knows I am trying my best to be faithful to Him.

Sigh... spring is lovely here in Philly. Praise God.